So I got this email today and it turns out he didn't get the job he had applied for. It had been a long, arduous interview process, but at the end they hired the other person.

And deep down inside, I was releaved. I was already feeling jealous just thinking that he might go to work there. How awful is that? I mean, here my best friend doesn't get a job he wants and I feel good about it.

I guess I was feeling jealous because I don't want any of my friends to somehow encroach on the relationship with our alma mater that I somehow feel entitled to. Because I worked there. Because it means so much to me.